Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I thought tonight would be a good night to tell everyone a little about our son Hayden. Hayden is our third son and he is 6 1/2. Around the age two we knew that something wasn't quite right. He didn't talk, threw toys and wouldn't look at us when we called his name. I had a friend who worked in speech therapy for the school district and told me to get it checked out. After 6 months of therapy, testing and visits with autism experts the school district diagnosed him with autism. He was also diagnosed by his doctor. It's been a long road for us. I'm watching a TV program tonight where a family has 6 autistic children. It has made me do some thinking about our life...what we go through everyday...the ups and downs we go through...the heartache and happiness that goes with this diagnosis. I love my son so much...but I have days where I don't know how to handle all that goes on. This summer is going to be a hard one for us with having a new baby. I'm feeling stretched and frustrated...Hayden wants to be outside all the time and it's not possible for me to be out there constantly with him. When we come in the house he kicks doors, screams, cries and hits me/his brothers. It's hard to deal with...especially when I'm feeding the baby or taking care of him. I know there are other people out there who deal with this. I know I'm not the only one, but when you are home constantly (alone) with kids...it's hard not to feel alone.
I'm not writing this to depress anyone...or so you feel sorry for me. It's just something I wanted to share. I have many days where I'm hopeful and thankful to God for all the progress Hayden has made. He has come a long way and improved in many areas. Some days are harder...and you feel sad...or hurt when someone judges you as a parent because they think your kid is naughty. I really try hard to keep my head up and know that Hayden is a blessing...and one of the best things that has ever happened to me and my family. For any of you dealing with this I just want to offer hope...a listening ear...friendship. It's important to connect with people who are going through the same thing...to lift each other up...to offer support. Anyone can feel free to email me or leave a comment if they would like to talk further. Thanks for listening...enjoy this picture of our sweet Hayden.
Posted by Rachel Knoblich at 8:54 PM